Playing dress up

Tonight Sadie and I played dress up. She picked clothes out for me, including high heels with my socks and pants. :) She requested that we take some photos, and I taught her the definition of "selfie." Ha!

Enjoy these pics!

My skirt, pants, and shoes

Our selfie with my crown :)

Sadie with her dogs

Sadie with her cape and dogs. Love her!

Heartbreaking words from my 4 year old

It's been weighing on my heart for weeks. Now I know why. Last night Sadie said to me, "Mom, you are always thinking about pictures and you never have time to play with me." It's true. She's 100 percent correct. If I'm not away from her shooting, I'm editing. It's always, "in a minute sweetheart, mommy just needs to finish editing these pictures," or, "I'll be back soon, I just have to go take pictures." Lately she cries whenever I leave to go shoot a wedding or engagement session. The guilt is overwhelming. If I didn't have a day job, it wouldn't be so bad, but since I work all day and then edit at night and take photos on the weekend, it means a lot of time away from my little girl. I've been trying to make a point to set my phone down the moment we walk in the door in the evenings and just focus on her, and clearly it's time for more than just a break from the phone. I just finished editing the engagement photos that I took in AZ and am officially taking a break from photos. I'm having surgery in a week, so one could say it was forced, but hearing those words last night were so powerful that I think even if I wasn't being forced to take a break I would be. I won't ever get these years back with her, and she has to be number one. One of these days I'll photograph full time and won't have the day job, but until that day comes, I am going to start really limiting my shooting schedule. My sweet Sadie is too important.